This was written 2 months back when, I had gone completely insane... :p
Yesterday was unexpected & unpredictable, He is gone, left me forever, I don't think he will ever come back. But whatever happens happen for the best.. i was holding it so firmly with both my hands, mind, soul,heart that it would have taken me a century to get over it. I appreciate he made the first move, atleast its crystal clear now, I had it in me so deep. I felt like somebody has punched me hard in my chest, suffocated, a vacuum resides there. I will never forget any of it, Its not possible.
I have always been unsuccessful in getting what I have always wanted with complete dedication, determination & devotion, I am not competitive, active & bold, I am rather a spectator waiting for things to happen my way. I think I will have to change that.
Life hasn't changed at all, morning, evenings, nights all peek in & out on usual times... so here i make a firm decision not to let anything at all to take me down. I have deprived myself for the sake of him to many things, wonderful people, I wont let it happen now. There was a time when he was my sole priority, Not anymore.
Thank you for giving a chance to live, to truly be myself without any rules, regulations, conditions or pretensions. I still didn't figure out why did you walk into my life in the first place whatever the reason may be its was not worth living it, it was, is & will always be dull, dominating, very depressing.
Thank you for out & making it easy for me.
Yesterday was unexpected & unpredictable, He is gone, left me forever, I don't think he will ever come back. But whatever happens happen for the best.. i was holding it so firmly with both my hands, mind, soul,heart that it would have taken me a century to get over it. I appreciate he made the first move, atleast its crystal clear now, I had it in me so deep. I felt like somebody has punched me hard in my chest, suffocated, a vacuum resides there. I will never forget any of it, Its not possible.
I have always been unsuccessful in getting what I have always wanted with complete dedication, determination & devotion, I am not competitive, active & bold, I am rather a spectator waiting for things to happen my way. I think I will have to change that.
Life hasn't changed at all, morning, evenings, nights all peek in & out on usual times... so here i make a firm decision not to let anything at all to take me down. I have deprived myself for the sake of him to many things, wonderful people, I wont let it happen now. There was a time when he was my sole priority, Not anymore.
Thank you for giving a chance to live, to truly be myself without any rules, regulations, conditions or pretensions. I still didn't figure out why did you walk into my life in the first place whatever the reason may be its was not worth living it, it was, is & will always be dull, dominating, very depressing.
Thank you for out & making it easy for me.
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