My story

What’s my story..?

Ordinariness it is… 

I want to shine everyday, bright & clean.

I want to have a fab body, the most flawless & fairest skin, many many dogs, I want a tiger & lion as my pet (I find them adorable), I want to have a super apt man by my side forever.

I expect, I do a lot, I expect others to care for me, I expect others to love me, I expect others to call me, I expect others to understand me, I expect others to feel my pain, I expect others to know what’s on my mind & hence because of all this I don’t expect anything… at all. I am better off alone, I manage myself fairly well & today I m so independent as one can imagine.

I don’t give a damn, I scare people of with my cold & blunt look, I loose myself when my crush is nice to me (m still trying to figure out, is the prob with me or with him), I cry, all the time, there are time when not finding where I kept my phone makes me cry, cockroaches, lizards & insects give me a yuck feeling.

I fear shadows surrounding me in the dark. I fear height, I fear water, I fear risks.

I rejoice success, hmm I think that’s it, really, I thought about it, I m a moody person, I can’t stand rejection, deeply gets hurt by harsh words. Nothing surprises me, as I expect everything… smart isn’t it?

I love dancing, I dance while cleaning the room, dance while making chapattis, dance while getting ready to work, I love ol hindi songs (kinda romantic), I also love rock music. I get goose bumps when I listen to Kailash Kher’s “Teri Diwani” & Jagit Singh’s “chupke chupke raat din”. I get moved by the melancholic baritone.

I talk to dogs on street, I smile at the moon, stare & beam at full moon, and I also talk to myself, I talk to god.

I have stood in the shower & cried, I have imagined that the moment I close my eye a huge sea animal will attack me.

I hate, absolutely detest strangers staring at me or touching me, I feel like slapping all those who can’t respect others physical space, but I choose the next best alternative – eyebrow, works well… on most occasions.

I am very lazy when I am home; I feel like lying on the bed like a dead body, staring at the sky from my window, I love messy bed, with books, stuffed toys, body lotions, lip balms, just like they show in the movies. I pray every time, whenever I feel like.

I love it when my leg doesn’t hurt when I am wearing pencil heals or stilettos or wedges or pumps, I love running, but I don’t run, I don’t run at all.

I love cloudy days, cloudy i.e. no sun & no rains, I love rains when I am indoors or out to get wet.

I envy Deepika Padukone for her body & looks, Sonam Kapoor for her money to afford all those designer labels, I envy Aishwarya Rai... umm she is fake… Hate it!

I love to travel, but cant stay away from home, I need that comfort to recharge myself.

I am not a foodie, yeah but I love fancy restaurants, chats & desserts, & I do need food to comfort me on bad day.

Appreciation for my work & passion sets me high, otherwise it depresses me, & appreciation for the work I didn’t do, makes me uncomfortable.

Liars, I hate, hypocrites, two faced, sloppiness, abusive language, bad style statement, filth, nonsense infuriate me, someone using or even touching my stuffs set5s me on fire, I am super possessive.

I am obsessed with sun signs, me being a Virgo by sun sign & a Cancer by moon sign, desire to have a Scorpio, Taurean, Pisces man.

I love dewdrops on leave early morning, I also love watering plants, they are like my babies, along with my dog… My weakness, he is the only light in my life.

About me, I am confused about everything, I laugh when someone says I have a clear mind, I wanted to be a doctor, as when I was 3 the person who saved my dad was a doctor, I also wanted to be Miss World, after watching Sushmita Sen win the title, but ended up being a Media professional, Writer & teacher (love kids)…

I love easily, I trust easily, I step back when I am about to trust anyone, My heart has been broken, guys have made me cry, I feel invisible when I am in crowd, I don’t think anybody is afraid of loosing me.

I love to learn my own lessons.

I love to wash my own clothes

I love to clean my own room

I am still in love with the first guy I truly loved… yeah even after getting my heart shatterd.

I love the sound of waves, I love falling asleep watching the sky & the twinkling stars.

I get carried away, easily!